Dropping out was the best decision i could have made independently of how difficult it was or how suicidal i was (which made it awful and sad) but for a year i walked like 20km every day at my own pace, ate whatever i wanted and read more and better books that i ever had before.
That really changed me honestly. And it changed me for the better. Im not saying depression was good or anything but i am capable of looking back at it and looking at the positives as much as the negatives. It was good and i deserved to be happy. That happens.
